I had an insanely long day. I was anchoring for our broadcast news show today. It was fun, and I didn't even stutter. I think we will have it on the web soon. I was having problems with my partner. Long story, and I dont' want to live through it again. I was so mad I called T last night and I swear I talked for 10 minutes without taking a breath. That does wonders people, keep it in mind next time you are mad. I am producing the show next week and I certainly hope the Assosiate Producer doesn't go on a power trip. I do realize he has more experience than me, but though! I am the Producer, so get over it buddy! I don't know what is up with these men and their power trips. Sheesh! A bit of exciting news, I was able to get in contact with my Turkish teacher from middle school. It is amazing to find people that you cared so much about from your past. I had her e-mail for a while but I didnt' have the guts to write, because I mean what if it is the wrong person. Or she says "who are you?" But I wrote, and she wrote back!!! I mean, this is not just any old teacher. Have you ever had a teacher who changed your life? She was one of those special teachers. Can't wait to write back! The best news is that I found my camera!! Well, it never really left me. Turns out it was in Rachel's car all along. I am very excited because next week is the Languages and Cultures of Asia night. Remember our "Meseli Daglar" This year we are doing "Kiziroglu." Unfortunately I haven't been going to practices due to my schedule. Have I mentioned before that my earliest class is at 2:30 PM. Sleep!!! Since my camera is back, I can post the pictures from the Asura dinner we had last month. I will put some here. The rest is at, http://www.flickr.com/photos/kelebek/
Before the Asura dinner I went over to Alex's house to do some homework. Rachel later came to pick us up. But me, always looking for a nap, managed to take one. That is why I dont' have my glasses on. See my awesome scarf (basortu, hijab) that is the gift of ever-wonderful Yasmin. She got it for me when she was in Haj!
That is Betul. She started wearing her scarf recently. I think she looks adorable!
That is Alex, doing the "Japanese Tourist" pose. The two guys next to him are Turkish students. I think I will learn their names when I show up for practice! And all the way to the right is Alper Abi. He was my boss during my short stint as a magazine intern!
Susan, on the left is another Turkish student. In the middle is Derya Abla, she teaches Turkish at UW. She is the most stylish person I know. She always matches everything she wears, and everything looks so gorgeous on her. Rachel, making a goofy face as usual. She did get a hair cut, the picture weirded me out for a bit!
I love this little guy. He is Meral abla's son, Zahid.
It is hard to be in the pictures when you have the camera! I think Alperen Abi took this picture. In the picture, me, Alex, Derya Abla, and lovely Jess!
Mmm, food. I was running around taking pictures, so I didn't get to enjoy most of it!
In the background is Alperen Abi, who was the cook of the evening for the asura! I did tell he's married to Jess before right?
Soo, how many fillings does kelebek have? Lets count! (13 actually incase anyone is wondering!)
I am not quiete sure what we are trying to do here. Any guesses?
Jess! She spent most of the time in the kitchen pouring tea for everyone.
The food on the table had post-it notes on them indicating what was in the dish. Rachel thought it would be a good idea to take the Post-it notes and put them on people's backs. Alex's reads: Turkish Meatballs (Kofte) with potatoes & sauce.
I ended up changing myscarf because my other one kept sliding off. I have to figure out a different style to wear it!
It is art okay. You don't have to understand!
Pop quiz, whose shoes are these. Well too easy! Alex, mine and Rachel's of course!
You know I am going to miss these guys. Rachel is most likely going to Germany, and Alex got into Princeton, so he will be in New Jersey. Sigh.. You can see me wearing another post it note. It says Green Salad (Veg).
This needs a little explaining. Mr. Baistriysliyli and I were in the library. I was doing research for my (what else) thesis. Alex showed me you can actually have the program to translate articles to different languages. We chose Turkish. One of the sentences included the phrase "Bush's Fan" The program decided to translate it as "Bush'un Yelpazesi." Yelpaze means the paper fan one fans themselves with, not "fan" meaning "enthusiast." So, there you go, "Bush's Fan."
Photo posts take forever! I am sleepy now and I have so much to do tomorrow. I'll go bug T now! kelebek }{
Posted at 9:22 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
tow library
Today I spent pretty much my entire day at the library. I met Mr. Baelaestaeri for coffee around 3, and we headed to the library. He is doing a research on Karacay Turkleri (I think) and me of course thesis. My head hurts. I think I am going to do something I haven't done in a long time. I am going to be before 1 AM today. I don't have desire to do anymore work and T is studying his brains off for his qualifiers, so I dont' want to bother him either. I am online now making up a new personality as we speak. I think I've mentioned before me being invaded by Turks on MSN messenger. I can't block people anymore so I dont' go online very often. But sometimes when I am bored I sign in to make fun of people. Today I get to be Hakan, and freak out the ones looking for a hot turkish girl. I know, I know I should be working on my thesis but it is fun to make fun of people who invade my privacy! I do need to print something out to read for my law and ethics class. I will go do that and call it a night. kelebek }{
Posted at 12:02 PM
Monday, March 20, 2006
tow future and ceyiz
I am sitting at Espresso Royale by the Capitol and drinking apricot tea. Honestly this is the nicest thing I have done in a while. Of course I do have to go back to work soon but it is nice to have an apricot tea break. I know you aren't supposed to look at other people's screens, but there is a guy sitting a three feet away from me. I can tell that he's looking at next semester (Fall 2006). I know, because I have registered eough times to know what that page looks like. Which brings me to the title of the post, the future. Normally I would be doing the same picking classes to for the upcoming semester. Deciding just how early do I want to drag myself out of bed, and figuring out a way to not have class on Friday. Except I can't. It is because ins I am graduating in a few months. That means no more classes, no more schedules, no more exams, no more freaking out about overdue essays. I make it sound like it is a bad thing. But it kinda is. You see this is all I have done with my life since I was 5 years old, go to school. I remember telling the seven-year-old-daughter of a family friend that I was in 16th grade and watched mouth drop as she tried to figure out just how that is possible. But it is true, counting kindergarten that is 17 years of school that I've attended. For the sake of my own sanity I try not to think too far ahead from this May, and even if I wanted I really can't. When I was in middle school I always thought in ten years I would be graduating from university and becoming a teacher. That is not happening, and not just because I studied Journalism. As soon as people hear I am graduating in May, I know what they are going to ask. "What are you doing after graduation?" Honest answer, "I wish I knew!" But I go through the humor route and say "I am going to learn to crochet and knit like a good Turkish girl." Or if it is a Turkish person asking then I say, "Nakis kursuna gidip ceyiz yapacagim." Meaning I am going to a hand crafts school and get my dowry together. Except "ceyiz" doesn't exactly translate to "dowry." I looked it up in the dictionary and the closer meaning is "trousseau" but I have no clue how to pronounce that. I sometimes can swear the moment a mother has a girl, she starts preparing ceyiz for her daughter. My mom has been putting together my ceyiz I think since I was two or so. Upon my marriage I finally get to be the proud owner of dozens of dantel (it does translate as crochet, but you have to see the dantel to really appreciate it. I suppose it is closer to "lace" than "crochet" A blog I link to, Fiyonk has great examples. Here's an example of a dantel I really liked, http://www.fiyonk.net/blog/?p=217 I have dantel for tables, coffee tables, small tables, circle tables, beds, sheets, pillow cases, TV sets, entertainment units, pretty much any surface a dantel can be laid on. Other than dozens of dantel sets I also have God knows how much kitchen stuff. Just last week my mom was showing me a spoon set she bought for herself. She did inform that she also bought another one for my ceyiz. I probaly have enough fancy scarves with dantel around the edges to open up a store. I think my mom also bought me a large collection of other house stuff. I bet my grandma is going ceyiz happy too! So a ceyiz is something of a humongous collection of things that a family (usually mothers or grandmothers) accumulate over time for their daughters or grandaughters. Of course a good Turkish girl should be able to add to their own ceyiz! For my defense I did finish a cross-stiched table cloth. I wanted to use it, but my mom sent it to Turkey, so my grandma can put it in my ceyiz. I can't say I contributed any dantel because I never really understood how to do it. I admired the patience and talent of the people who can produce those beautiful dantel. So when I tell a Turkish friend that I will be working on my ceyiz, that is what I mean. Allright, enough with the ceyiz talk, I am going to give T a heart attack! I am going to head out now and wait for the bus. There is something wrong with our internet, and Ann doesn't get back till later this week. I suppose it is a good thing because then I can get a lot of work done without the internet. I hope my phone is here! I thought being without the phone was bad, try being without a phone and internet! Eeek! kelebek }{
Posted at 10:07 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
tow my phone
My phone died last night. I was just reading my txt messages and the darn thing froze. I took the battery out put back in about 10 times. Nottin. I took it to Best Buy and the guy there was the supervisor. He tried different things nothing worked. Finally he said I have to call Verizon Wireless so they can send me a replacement. Umm, hello Best Buy dude but you have twenty phones sitting there, can't you replace it? Nooo, that would actually make sense. So I went to a pay phone, called Verizon and of cousre the lady told me take out the battery blah blah. Didn't work. She transfered me to tech sport, more battery stuff. Finally the guy said they'll send me a new phone! Sheesh! It should be here by Monday or Tuesday. right, with my luck I'll get it on Thursday. I need my phone. My phone is my life line. I use it for everything. And it is pretty much my only connection to T! All day, no phone call, no txt messages, no pix messages from no one! I suppose I can get used to it. I wasn't born with a cell phone. Thank God for messenger w/ sound and camera. But I still want my phone back. I just realized I wrote an entire paragraph about my cellphone. Why doesn't my thesis come this easy?! After the Best Buy fiasco I went to a book store and spent the rest of the day working on my thesis. I've been researching and reading for almost 6 months now, why can't I just sit down and get it written? I don't know! I really want to get it done and over with. Only two more days left in spring break before the classes start again. I have an exam on Wednesday. Allah help us! kelebek }{
"There is no flag large enough to cover the shame of killing innocent people for a purpose which is unattainable. -- Historian Howard Zim
Posted at 1:46 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
tow eyes
My eyes hurt. It is exactly 8 PM and I have been sitting in this spot since 4 PM. Well I did get up to get a drink of water and go the bathroom (see the connection?) but with the exception of that I've been sitting in the College Library trying to get my thesis done. I've worked on it too long to give up but I want to give up.. I need some motivation! I can't look at this screen much longer, but I have two delayed birthday wishes. Well I called them both of course, but it is nice to acknowledge it publicly! The first one goes to my dear, dear friend Yasmin who had her birthday on the 10th. A few days before we went out to eat for her birthday. Here are the stolen Facebook pictures, (shh, don't tell Amber!) --- It's 1:03 AM and I am in my room now! There is the birthday girl Yasmin (in the green scarf) sitting pretty next to Amber. Next to Amber is Amber's sister, Myra
I am not quite sure what I am pointing at here! Mona (purple scarf, she's Yasmin's sister) is sitting next to me, and Maryam is next to her.
Let's ignore my face here, I was trying to make bunny ears. That's Ayesha next to Mona.
Maryam with her authentic Chanel glasses!
All right pop quiz, lets name the people in the picture!
Me!
I don't know if I complained about it yet, but I lost my camera. So now I can only take pics with my cellphone. Here's a random collection:
My new shoes. Well, new for me anyway. They were actually "hand me ups" from my little brother. You see we have the same size feet and my brother likes saving his money and buying shoes every few months. Since he only wears them for a few months, it would be a shame to throw away such nice shoes. So, I wear them. I've actually been waiting for this pair for a while!
Went I went home I caught my boyfriend. He is getting too big to just sit on my lap and look cute. I lured him with chocolate, but didn't last long!
It's my blog, so I can put my picture as much as I want! I do like this picture, except my nose looks weird!
It's not snowing anymore, so this is an old picture. IT made me laugh because it looks like I have a booger in my nose!
This was the desk I was slaving at today. You can kind of see all the papers scattered around. If you look carefully on the left side there is my half-eaten chocolate chip granola bar. On the right, by my lappitty toppitty is Black Widow (my Ipod). And next to is is the most-awesomest-coffee-mug-ever-made. I carved my name and my phone number on it, just incase I lose it.
Buda, Turkce bilen okuyanlar icin. Gecenlerde alisverise gittigimde bu sandvic'i gordu buzlukta. Kendi kendime gulerken resimini cekip Turkce bilenlerle paylasmak geldi. (Well, this picture is funny if you only know Turkish!)
Tomorrow I have to wake up early and take the bus to Barnes and Noble to buy a book I need. I am excited because Yasmin is coming over and we are cooking --or not probably we'll get some pizza! kelebek }{
I never saw it happening I'd given up and given in I just couldn't take the hurt again What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight Suddenly you seemed so right Me and you What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine
Love will remain a mystery But give me your hand and you will see Your heart is keeping time with me -- Aqualung
Posted at 1:30 AM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
tow play
There are times when I feel so awful and anti-socialof course I dont' have the luxury of cutting of communication. Wouldn't it be great to have some sort of human answering machine? Whenever someone tries to talk to you, they would hear this...
"Kelebek's life has been forwarded to an automated answering machine. Kelebek is not available for human interacation at the moment. At the tone record say something encouraging. When you are finished speaking you may hang up or give hug for a greater chance at communication."
Yea, that's not happening anytime soon so I have to go through motions of existing and interacting with humans. I went to watch the play of Pride and Prejudice me and Yasmin have been looking forward too. Unfortunately it wasn't all that great. I was disapointed in the girl that played Elizabeth. The entire time she had a smirk on her face and all too cheeky to be Elizabeth. It felt more like a comedy rather than the great story Pride and Prejudice is. I am going to Milwaukee briefly because my family is going to Chicago tomorrow and frankly I am kinda sick of Madison. I do have to come back on Sunday to start the spectacular-thesis-extravaganza on Monday. From then on expect me to complain more than usual about it because I am planning on producing 30 or so pages by the end of spring break. Go Me! For those of you who do have a life and planning on doing something fun, good for you. Send me a postcard. Finally, join a mini-wave in celebration of Mr. Baleeestreeeyreee! I am not sure if I have permission to tell why, but people take my word for it, he rocks! kelebek }{
Posted at 1:22 AM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
tow i am sick
I've been sick for the past three days or so and I hate it. Most sickness, like cold or sorethroat I can deal with. I had laryngitis and bronchitis before. I don't think though a lot of people minded that I lost my voice for a few days. But this time I had nausea. It's awful because there isn't much you can do about it except lie down and try not to throw up. I am throughly behind in all my course work, which of course is terrible. Oh, and I just received a wonderful e-mail from the University people telling me my GPA ain't cutting it for honors. F*CK! I need a 3.4 and I am 3.385. All right, lets round that up, what do we get? 3.4 but noooo, it has to be 3.400. I was so unmotivated to do my thesis before, I am even more unmotivated now. Lord help me. Yeah, I pretty much came here to bitch about the awful past couple of days I've been having. I don't really have anything exciting to share. A huge thank you goes to Mr. Beileistierireri for bring me home made soup. And another thank you to my dad for driving all the way from Milwaukee to bring me medicine. And my dear T who obviously couldn't come from TX, but nevertheless never failed to check up on me. I gotta go write an already over due paper fro Mass Media and the Consumer and make a feeble attempt at writing another one for Mass Media and Ethics. Blegh kelebek }{
Forgetting all I'm lacking Completely incomplete I'll take your invitation You take all of me now
I'm falling even more in love with you Letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and not quite sure where to go And I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you -- Lifehouse
Posted at 9:05 PM
